True Love...

I don't know why I feel sometimes that nobody will like me...everybody will misunderstand me!
But this is also true that I can't make happy everybody everytime and nobody can! Why God has created everything so balanced! Everything is over some pivot point. Nobody knows when someone starts trusting on you or someone starts ignoring you. Everything is unpredictable. But I want one relationship that will be made of real TRUST, bond of truth. I believe only truth can make a perfect relation! Not only relation but every aspect of life can be stronger by truth. In Architecture, in common practice clients are often brainwashed. But the real form can be created if you can only follow your heart chasing 'the function'.....!
True Love occurs when you speak from your heart and you have control over your mind! If you don't love truly, deeply and madly then you can't have the expression-that comes directly from heart...!

What I need.....?

I just don’t know that what I am feeling right now but I am thinking that I should go out right now from my coolest green desk. My uncle had a serious accident yesterday in India and he was riding my motorbike. Bryan and I went to Edward’s to see a movie and we did parked in non-parking zone and I paid the half of towing-away fee. I felt very guilty I don’t know, I am feeling very uncomfortable. I really don’t know why! Something is bothering me. I want to do a real job what’s makes me happy: not these material gain. I want to do something that really gets appreciated. I want to see peoples’ faces around me those are happy and they are proud of myself.
I am feeling very disgusting, ashamed about one person who misunderstood me. I am ashamed about my anxiety, my impatience! Why the God has not given me the power of patience. Sometimes why I feel that I am getting what I am seeking, although everybody feels the same shit-thing. No one in this world is happy: the more he gets, the more he wants! I want to get rid of these. Please God (I believe, you are one) show me the meaning of my craziness...!